So I stopped pumping a couple of weeks ago. After Justin came home it got to be too much feeding him from a bottle and still pumping. I felt guilty but at the time I stopped only 2 out of his 8 feedings were breast milk and I was barely making enough for those feeds. When he was readmitted to the hospital they started him on full breast milk feedings so I tried to get my supply back up but it was too late and my milk had already dried up.I had already accepted the fact that I would probably never get to breastfeed. From discussions with the lactation consultant and research of my own I knew it was easier for Justin to bottle feed than breastfeed. The times I put him to breast in the hospital he was able to latch on and suck but he was never able to get any milk. And the few times I tried to put him to breast after he came home he never latched on and would give me this look like “Are you serious”. Fortunately I had been freezing my milk from the day he was born so I have a good amount of milk on hand and hopefully it’ll last a couple more months.
Remember when you opened our freezer and saw the milk and said ewww! HAHAHAHAHA!!!
ReplyDeleteYou did breastfeed Justin.. just not in the conventional way. It was your breastmilk that helped sustain him. Your milk is probably the reason he is such a fighter! Justin just chose to take the easy way out of getting his milk. He decided early on that feeding at the breast took far too much energy. He knew he needed his energy to take nice deep breaths.
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